Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas! Let us all spread the love. Happy Birthday Papa Jesus :)

If every men would have a perfect face like this.. probably this world will be a wonderful place to live in.. :)

I was so kinda hooked for the 3rd time watching Asian dramas. My first crush was Jerry Yan.. Oh well it was because of the Meteor Garden series :D hahaha! Next was Rain because of Full House :D waaah! I remembered those times Song Hye Kyo and Rain were of perfect match. *giggles* hahahaha.. but now.. I found my new Korean crush.. and of course I know that a lot of girls like this man.. meet my Lee Min Ho :) weee that face is so damn perfect! The nose, the eyes and the lips.. oh my! I wanna faint! hahahaha! I'm so getting gaga over him too.. :D If i could have a boyfriend as handsome as him well all my worries will all be gone :) haha!

Minsan..

Sa buhay.. madalas may mga expectation tayo, na kapag hindi natupad o nangyayari eh nafrufrustrate tayo.. Minsan mahirap umasa.. Naisip ko nga e. ung think positive ba eh same sa pag eexpect about something na gusto mangyari. I mean halimbawa, kung gusto mo mangyari ang isang bagay you have to think positive daw, in that means you expect right? Pero ang sabi nila wag daw magexpect para hindi masaktan. So paano yun? If you think positively do you expect something in return? Ang gulo.. yan yung nasa utak ko eh. Ang gulo ko.. Haaay...

Nalulungkot ako ngayon.. Ang dami dami kasing bagay ang nagpapalungkot sakin. Gusto ko malaman yung sagot sa tanong ko na yun. Gusto ko malaman yung difference dun sa thought na yun.. Sana naiintindihan mo.. At sana naiintindihan ko rin.. Haaay! haha..

People love to demand. Lahat tayo demanding.. MInsan hindi natin nakukuha yung gusto natin. Kelangan nating bawas bawasan ang mga bagay bagay na gusto natin kase hindi naman natin yan makukuha agaran. We need to be patient. We need to coordinate with time.. Parang ako.. Gusto ko na magka boyfriend hindi parin ako magkaboyfriend pero okay lang yun.. Hindi naman sa nagmamadali ako, may times kase na I wanted someone to talk to.. Someone who could give me the care.. I'm wanting some sweetness.. Pero.. Alam ko naman na siguro nga hindi ko pa panahon magka bf. Eh at siguro kase sa tingin ni God eh hindi pa ako handa.. Or hindi pa Siya decided kung sino ibibigay Niya sakin :).. Pero sana.. malapit na.. Minsan may mga situation na.. Feeling mo ready ka na.. Pero wala parin.. Kapag hindi na naman ready dun dumarating.. Alam mo ba yun? Wala sa timing minsan.. haaay ang dami kong tanong.. Pero siguro kaya ganun eh dahil tinetest tayo kung hanggang saan nating kakayanin ang mga pagsubok.. Siguro tinatantsa pa tayo.. Tapos after nun bibigyan tayo ulit ng chance para sa bagay na yun. Every body deserves a second chance ika nga.. haay.. Ang dami kong iniisip.. Next time ko na lang ulit ilalagay dito.. You're my bestfriend blog.. Pati si twitter na rin.. haha! Buti pa kayo..

Ito lang muna sa ngayon, Tagalog naman! :D

Flirt! haha

It was so like duh? What the heck came in my mind to miscall my new crush? haha that was so embarrassing! I've got my new crush. Well I just had a crush on him because my friends told me that he's cuter than my real crush. haha! I'm such a flirt. As if those dudes know me. Like duh? NO! haha. I'm the only one who knows them and of course they don't know me. :D yuck I'm like a stalker. haha.. Actually those guys are cute.. I also wanted to be friends with them..but then that's not going to happen at all.. Okay.. Their names are : Rain and Patrick haha :D :D :D :D. It's only an admiration. That's it. My heart's not yet ready to fall in love again. Chos! The truth is.. I'm waiting for the right person now.. but I think he's not yet coming.. haha :D that's all!

Unexpected

"The people whom you don't expect to help you might be your saviour"

- I have actually realized this a while ago. There are some people whom you believe that you can't rely on, but that thought might prove you're wrong. I can testify to that. This day gave me a chance to appreciate my college buddies. I really appreciated the help that they gave me, to my sister actually. We were looking for 8 persons who can donate blood so I volunteered but then I was not allowed because I'm underweight. Aww! I really can't imagine I'm underweight. After I've known that, well of course that made me frustrated. I was really planning to donate my blood for my sister but I didn't know that I'm in that state. My sister really needed a blood donation. I wanna ask my friends about it. But I was too shy to ask. I really couldn't bear it, my sister needs it or else there would be a delay in the operation. So I asked one of my friends if she can help me find donors. Luckily, Benneth was really willing to help me a while ago. Thank God! So after I have a while 7 of my classmates went with me to the hospital. 3 of them only passed the blood tests. So I still need 5 donors. Oh I forgot. We only need 4 because my aunt found 1 donor which was paid. So the.. Benneth again helped me, she called my other classmates who were left in school. It was so embarrassing I told her but she told me not to be. I really appreciated the kindness she gave me. We were not able to attend our class but then it was just fine because I told my professor about the blood donation thing, which he agreed and said "okay noted". Thank God! My professor was so kind hearted. After our last subject, some of my classmates came and I was so surprised to see them, it was like they occupied the whole space of the jeep. oh! that one was so touching! After that we went straight to the blood bank. They were all began to make noise but it was just fine. Those were just cheerful and supportive noises. A pleasant noise I might say.

I really wanna express my thank you to all of those people present at that time. Now I realize that they're worth to be called as "REAL FRIENDS". I was wrong about my perception towards some of them You know what, I just realized that you must give other people a chance to prove their selves. Sometimes it's just a matter of time. Sometimes it happens unexpectedly..

I Give My First Love to You

This is a Japanese drama entitled " I Give My First Love to You "

I really loved this film. It made me cry. It'll let you appreciate life. Some people are given limited chance to live and that they strive to live longer. Everyone of us should learn the value of life. It's so captivating how Mayu shows her love to Takuma, the boy in the story who suffers an ailment and that was bound not to reach the age of 20. The sweetness of these young couples showed me how strong young and true love is. I really liked it. There was a scene were Takuma asked the god of the four leaf clover ( i hope i got that right ) to still give him little more time to be with Mayu. That made me realize that our life is only borrowed. That part seems to be the happiest moment of the two. Thank God the boy was given a chance to live even just for a while. I will really recommend this to my friends. Korean and Japanese dramas are so great!

Dementia :|

this video made me teary eyed. I remember the Korean movie " A moment to remember " when I watched this short film. Suffering from dementia made so scared to forget all the memories I have in mind. I don't actually want to forget all of the things that I treasured for a very long time. In these cases, rare cases I think, I really can't help but to pity on them. I wish there would be a possible solution for this. :|

Shocking Saturday

Ugh! This Saturday? it doesn't really seem to be a happy day. I saw him ( my crush ) he was wearing a maroon shirt and had a bonnet on his head. Aww! he really looked good :) haha. Gosh! I may be gaga over him but something hinders me to like him more. Well because he added my friend on FB :( aww! That one strikes my heart. The man I like likes my friend. As in DUH? why do I think this way. Rain has a girlfriend, he's such a flirt! Flirter than I could imagine. :| well my friend is beautiful I know that. She got the height and the body, oh yeah! how about me? I don't actually know :| they say I know how to dress myself well. Okay. So is that the only thing they can say to me? OWWWW! I don't wanna have self pity okay? I wanna let myself believe that I am beautiful in my own way. okay. My crush really don't seem to notice me. well maybe I'm not hid type :(( haha looool! I hate this feeling! it was as if I was rejected that no one would ever like me. I know I know I don't look approachable but I'm kind if people would give themselves a chance to know more about me probably they'll find themselves wrong at the end because of their "1st impression" about me.. Haaaay. Maybe we're not meant to be friends. We're better off as strangers.. But I don't want it that way. I really wanna have a connection with him. I mean I really wanna be friends with him.. :) I don't wann think negatively. I wanna think positively. Oh okay. This day is a shocking day because of what I've learned from a friend of mine. So what's the big deal if he added my friend? :D okay I'll improve myself next time :D

picture with my dear Lolo Ignacio

These pictures were taken right after we attended the mass. We had a picture bonding and I was so glad that my grandfather is very much on to take photographs. :) He is more lively than my grandmother does. He's always on the go to play jokes with his grandchildren. But on the other hand, my grandfather already has a memory gap that's why sometimes he don't remember my name. But that is okay because I know he knows me. :) I'm really thankful to have a one great LOLO like him :D

IF

So. I saw his info

Last night, i really dealt with an extreme emotion. it was like something that I have experienced before but there was something different from the past. I can’t still figure out what was that difference. I am really wanting to find that out.

Okay, I will relate it to you. Last night when I was doing my homework a thought came in my mind. And I was pretty frantic about it, I finally searched my crush profile on Facebook. A funny thing right? So I was kinda frightened to what I saw. His profile picture was so rude. Err. It was a black and white picture and he was posing with a bad finger. you know like he was saying F*** you. err!. I actually got turned off because of his pictures. His posing was so frightful. He is handsome but he’s so thin. I think those pictures were taken and were uploaded 2 or three years ago. Oh. But there is one picture of him that caught my attention. I’ll show it here:

see? :D the picture is too small maybe you won’t recognize his face but I’m telling you he is cute. And I like him :).

I did not able to see him this day. A while ago, I was like a kid waiting for his fetcher to come. You know I keep on peeping out the window and our classroom hoping to seem him. Funny hahahaha! I kinda giggle every time i see him. But then of course I do giggle secretly :).

Wow. I really feel happy and content seeing him, funny how intense my infatuation is :D. well there is nothing wrong with having crushes right?

oh.. Rain.. I hope to be friends with you.. :)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE?

When I was young I had a lot of dreams.. a lot of imaginations and a lot of hopes. Now that I am becoming a grown up I am still wishing, dreaming and hoping a lot of things. Some of these are only or will only be a dream.. an impossible thing to happen.. but I do hope that my dreams would become a miracle. For I know that miracles sometimes happen.

WHEN I WAS YOUNG..

I dreamt to be a super star.

I dreamt to be a secretary of a company

I dreamt to be a doctor

I dreamt to be a nurse

I dreamt to be an engineer

I dreamt to be a politician

I dreamt to be a leader

I dreamt to be powerful

I dreamt to be loved

I dreamt to be adored

I dreamt to be understood

I dreamt to be cared

I dreamt to be someone else

I dreamt a lot of things..

.. but I..

.. never dreamt to be hurt

.. never dreamt to be forsaken

.. never dreamt to be ignored

.. never dreamt to be ruined

.. never dreamt to be jaded

.. never dreamt to be betrayed

.. never dreamt to be frustrated

.. never dreamt to be blamed

.. never dreamt to be abused

.. never dreamt to be used

.. never dreamt to be humiliated

.. never dreamt to be unnoticed

WHAT DO I WANT TO BE NOW?

I WANT TO BE THAT SOMEONE WHO EASILY HANDLES PROBLEMS VERY WELL

I WANT TO BE THAT SOMEONE WHO EASILY KNOWS HOW TO MOVE ON

I WANT TO BE THAT SOMEONE WHO EASILY FORGIVES FAULT

I WANT TO BE THAT SOMEONE WHO NEVER MINDS TO BE AGGRAVATED

I WANT TO BE THAT SOMEONE WHO KNOWS HOW TO WEIGH THINGS EQUALLY

I WANT TO BE THAT SOMEONE WHO WON'T BE HARD UP IN EXPRESSING WHAT HE/SHE FEELS

I WANT TO BE FREE.. FREE FROM THE PAIN, HURT AND THE SORROW

I WANT TO BE WHAT I WANTED TO BE..

The feeling haunts..

I can't imagine that I have not yet fully recovered from a break up. It was almost 4 years that my ex boyfriend and I parted ways. Our break up hasn't done me good since the day he had chosen the girl who caused me too much pain. Our break up wasn't clear. We had no formal break up at all. I hate this feeling. I keep on telling myself not to miss him, to wait for him and love him. I really wanted to have a new life. I really wanted to forget everything about him and about "us" before. If I could only erase that sad memory I might have done it right away.. But no I can't. It's the part of my past. A mistake which I will never do again.. Every time I see his pictures.. his pictures with his new or recent girlfriend I kinda feel a slight jealousy in my heart, a feeling that I shouldn't feel. Yes I admit that. Maybe I had moved on for about 70-80%. But of course I wanted to be fully recovered. I wanna see myself someday feeling no more pain or jealousy. I wish I could have a chance to clear things up. To say sorry.. or to say I love you for the last time. This feeling keeps on returning. I am looking forward for a positive result. I wish I could carry on.. Help me God.. I should let go..

You Are Beautiful

You Are Beautiful

Separate Lives..

oh.. just an ordinary day.. as usual i woke up past 9 o' clock. the usual time that a lazy person wakes up.. haha.. a very tiring day too.. well yeah as always..

i went to divi a while ago to buy some clothes to be sold in our office. Fortunately most of the clothes were sold out. i was so happy about that.. two dresses were left and i am still hoping that these would still be bought. :D i am having fun with the small business that i have here. :D haha go go go! i hope that this will grow bigger :D wee

just a moment ago, while i was wandering in my facebook world and chatting with my aunt abroad my attention sucker ex boyfriend sent me a message asking for a favor again. well what's new.. that bad boy who had broke my heart still doesn't have the bashfullness to ask favors from me.. oh well that mongrel seems so happy with her current girlfriend. it doesn't hurt me anymore.. but sometimes i can't avoid to think of him. it maybe because i still care for him.. but i don't wanna hold on to him anymore.. three years had past.. so in that long span of time i should have let go.. well holding on and letting go are two things that are so difficult to do.. haha it seemed like i was really out of my senses during the days that i was so depressed because he left me.. okay enough.. i don't wanna get dramatic on this part.. all is well now.. we have separate lives and i think we are both happy to where we are..

Problemado

hay grabe lagi na lang akong ganito. lagot ako talaga lapag hindi ko pa naayos yung grades ko sa accounting 2 namin. sana bukas makausap ko na yung prof namin dun naku na talaga huhu gusto grumraduate para kila mama at papa. ayaw silang mafrustrate sakin. Please God help me..hay

summer time with bea, ate joan and kuya sherwin& his friends :)

nakakainis.. :|

last night i got the chance to talk with a "friend in chat" friend lang naman talaga sa chat eh. hahaha matagal ko na rin nakakausap yun pero hindi naman consistent yung communication namin.. haha.. then last night that friend of mine asked me if he can court me. naman! syempre nagulat ako haha :)) napapaisip ako.. papayag ba ako? or should i say hindi pwede.. But the safest answer that popped up in my mind was .. "let's get to know more.." :D what do you think? Safe huh? yes for me it is.. At least I've seen a moderate answer for that unexpected question.. hahaha.. I don't want to reject other people.. it's difficult. Coz I know how it feels like when you're rejected. So back to that.. actually I'm wanting to open the doors of my heart.. since it was closed for a very long time, maybe it's time to open it.. haha but then how can you open a door if there is no one willing to open it.. alangan naman na ako diba? pilitan ba naman? haha ayaw ko syempre.. hindi naman ako sa naghahanap naghihintay lang ako sa may interested haha :S :D landi! :))))

meron pa ngang isa.. oh.. come on hindi naman ako assuming ha! syempre nararamdaman ko yun.. alam ko kapag gusto ako ng isang tao haha instincts lang yan :D.. haha yung isa naman matanda pa sa akin ng 10 years or more? I think I can understand how things move now.. how things move in an unusual way haha.. hay.. I don't care if he may be older that me.. What I'm looking forward for is the love and care that he can give to me.. and that is the most important thing to me..

i want someone who can accept me.. the real me.. haha.. It's difficult.. maybe it's not yet the right time for me.. more patience.. okay.. :) hay .. God bless me :)

I'm so worried :| deng!

huhuhu my goodness! This is the first time for me to feel worried about my job. Actually I am not that serious with this before. But oh! I'm kinda being worried because one of my students was removed in my timetable. huhuhuhu so I'm thinking that I might be at risk but please I do hope that he doesn't find me not good at all.. huhuhuhu I think I'm already realizing the worth of mu job.. And I think that's a good thing.. I hope that I can have new students for the next month.. I'll take care of this job.. I wish the company will give me additional working hours. I hope. Please Lord..

SEE? :D I really love my curly hair here :D i hope that can be permanent :)

I want to have a new look that'll suit me :))

Valerie has gone crazy again :))

I hope I can find the right one for me..... <3

Don't come back..

It was holy week last week. Last Thursday, I went home to our province alone :D. Haha what an unusual experience! To tell you I traveled to Pangasinan at 1 o' clock in the morning huh! :D It was a scary thing to imagine, but I finally made it :). Thank God I arrived safely in my sweet home town :).. It took for about 3 hrs only :D. It was a short travelling time. The usual traveling time is 5hrs see :D and it only took for a short while because there was no traffic :D.

Every time I go to Pangasinan, I always reminisce my good old days.. Those days that now turned to be one of my bitter sweet memories. It feels so good sometimes to stop and think of the past.. Sometimes it makes me cry.. and sometimes it makes me laugh so hard.. hahaha.. crazy things makes me so remarkable to my classmates :) that's why if you'll see our crossroads haha I've been called the "Sisa" of our batch. It's because I laugh so hard you know! :))

Good old days.. I miss you.. I hope to have a de javu haha.. but sometimes I find myself not at ease whenever I hope to bring those memories back again. At the end of my hopes and wishes to be with that someone again I always come to a realization that there can be no more "US" again. I've been so alone for almost three years of course I feel emptiness too sometimes..haha but I'm not desperate to have a boyfriend again. Of course God will give the right man for me.. all I need to do is to wait.. :)

Last week.. my ex boyfriend texted me and he wanted to see me. I'm kinda doubtful to see him again.. because I know that he's just flirting with me. He has a new girlfriend now that's why I don't want to have intimate connections with him any more. Unlike before ugh! There are times that I want to see him but whenever I remember those things that he have done oh my! everything's crashing and I'm hating more and more.. I don't want him back anymore.. I don't want to commit the same mistakes again. Once is really enough, two is very too much.. and three oh yes I really need to put a period to that. :D track the right path val! :) God loves me :)

Gutom

hay.. grabe feeling ko magcocollapse ako sa week na to. Wala pa akong pahinga dire diretcho hay.. so ngayon gutom naman ako wow OMG! As in I am zero balance today. hahahah maubos ba naman pera mo sa gamot. Nakew I will really do anything makapagpaganda lang haha vain ako! anu b yan.. I want to control myself when it comes to eating foods. Sinabihan kase ako na tumaba ako. Sos! Kapag sinasabihan ako ng ganung feeling ko talaga ang taba taba ko na. Kaya magstistick yan sa utak ko and I will really find a way how to make myself slimmer. hahaha

Telephone.. ring ring!

I really love Lady Gaga and Beyonce here! :) love it hahahaha!

LOOOOOOOKA!

Actually I was just tripping while taking this snapshots in Skype haha.. I've been kinda worried about my hectic schedules lately.. Oh my! I really wish ti solve all of these threats.. help me and my classmates oh God..


I hope I can have an extreme make over this summer! :)

Insane Professor

We have this professor who is very unpredictable. She is so moody, a faultfinder, perfectionist, a person who throws bad words to her students, inconsiderate!!!!!! Why does she acts like that? What's in her head? Is there a snake there? What can she benefit from giving us such burden???? Like DUH? I think she's crazy. yeah! CRAZY!! I hope that she'll realize what she's doing. We just really felt bad a while ago for not being able to take our exam for the nth time! And you know what? She'll also give us the same exam we had the last time as in the same exam we had. Then why don't she just give us that again and answer it at home. right? Like a take home exam so that everything will be perfect. That's what she wants.. all things must be perfect. Isn't she aware of the quote

NOBODY'S PERFECT

nobody's perfect.. so does she feel perfect of what she's doing to us? Why can't she give us a little pity. We want to graduate by 2011. We don't want to cram all over again. We don't want to repeat the other subjects. And we don't want to repeat the "burden subject" again which is a prerequisite for the other subjects.


I hope this BIG problem will be solved eventually.. Help us oh Lord.. :(

Please don't let me down

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Why are there people who lets you down? I just can't understand why there are some people who, in the first place are your friends, even tends to crash you with words that you don't expect to hear. It gives me P.A.I.N. I just don't know why do they act so mischievously. Why? Why? Why? I have a lot of problems right now and that I don't want them to add up. T.T no more war please..

HUHUHU.. Since Sunday I've been feeling a bad vibes about something. I just don't know but.. please.. I hope there would be no bad thing that may happen this week. I've been getting so paranoid about my friends because it's as if there's one of them who hates me.. Maybe I know the reason why would they hate me. And you know what's that? It's because of my attitude.. being so temperamental.. oh no.. yeah right it has been a negative thing about me. But what can I do? I change moods sometimes. And I'm working on it already.. but of course once I change my ways they might wonder what happened to me? err. You want me to change right?


I've tried that for one day.. behaving for one day. and you know what was their reaction? They said "hindi mo bagay" well, honestly I felt a little bit annoyed. I just want them to support me to whatever I do. I'm just trying to do the thing that I think is right for me. Yes. They've known me for being so out spoken, being so loud, so very talkative. That's why they often tease me sometimes. And their jokes are below the belt. And so I want to change things. because sometimes they exceed the limit. I get hurt knowing that it was just a joke. I know they don't understand and they wouldn't try to understand why I act so moody at times.. OH.. Sometimes what is too much causes one to burst into anger. And you can't blame them for that. If you really are my friends, REAL friends to emphasize it.. Please try to imagine yourself in my situation.. probably you would understand.. wish you can...

blogging is a nice thing to do..

yes! after how many years! (i think so) I'm back to this site again. I couldn't retrieve my password because I have already forgotten it. hahahaha every time I remember that I have an account in this site, I always enter the wrong password. I think I'm suffering from dementia. haha! just joking well.. I hope I can get addicted to this blogging thing again. I'll treat this blog as one of my very best friends. (even though I know that this blog of mine won't really talk to me, well at least I can tell all what I hide inside.) hahaha! ok ok.. :) I really hope that I can have a good time here :) :)

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