i feel sick

today is December 3, 2009.. i feel sick.. im so weak and i don't have the energy to play jokes.. my head really aches.. huhuhu i wish i can recover tomorrow.. today..is another ordinary day.. and i am not feeling well.. yah i'll repeat that all over again.. i'm not feeling well hahaha.. :)) okay anyway, it's been a long time that i have engaged here in my blog. my last post was last year? hahaha.. i've been lost for almost a year.. im not really into blogging but i want to try this.. this may be a way to help me let out the emotions that i feel:).. this blog can be my best friend.. my shoulder to cry on.. and this could also be my life.. yeah.. i will write everything that i feel.. i may write about the things that made me cry.. the things that made me laugh.. the things that made me mad.. and everything..

okay..

actually i'm here in the office.. i'm working as a part time online English teacher.. i started last last week, if i'm not mistaken that was November 19? yeah i think so.. thank God i got a job now. Working made me realize something.. and that is.. money is really hard to earn. you need one hundred percent energy to perform tasks given to you. this day i had six students to teach.. the first three were so tough :( they are hard to teach huhu they always repeat what i say and they don't answer the question that i asked them.. oh my.. things seem to be difficult. yes it is.. i feel so weak.. i might collapse later on.. but i wish i won't.. maybe i just need to rest.. hope this weekends could help me regain my energy and i hope that i can adjust myself to the changes happening to me.. i'll be having 3 more students to go.. three adults in particular.. but the first adult is absent again.. haha :)) it made me rest for 50 mins. thank God! but i hope he'll be present soon.. oh God please help me regain my energy.. give me enough strength to surpass the challenges that i'm facing in these days.. may i have the courage and the will to work hard.. this things are not only for my own good but for the welfare of my family and friends too..

.."it's only now that i have realized the hardship of earning money :) "